Spring Training

It’s funny what a little friendly smack-talk and motivation between runners can accomplish. But let me back up a few hours…

Friday morning I ran 10 easy miles with Dave. He and I are in the same training cycle and will be running the Colorado Marathon in early May. His paces are totally ramped up compared to mine, because I’m loading trail miles and hours instead of pure pace vs time. I smack-talked him into dipping into a Marathon Pace for the last mile, and he grudgingly obliged me by kicking it in and chasing me the last mile. That being said, Dave is a faster runner than I am hand’s down, and can hold a sub 7:30 pace for a lot longer than I can. I was just messin’ with him Friday morning.

Late Friday afternoon I felt a little itchy, ready to run again. The question was, should I run a double (two runs in the same day) given that I planned on running Saturday morning with the girls and Sunday morning at the Reservoir? As I sat at my computer writing I tweeted with Jeff (my twitter runner friend from Seattle who’s ramping up his training in preparation to run a 100-miler in late March), discussing this little idea of mine. He asked all the right questions; what was on the books for Saturday and Sunday, were the miles going to be on road or trail, what was the expected pace? Based on my answers he gave the thumb’s up; run a double on the mountain, go easy on Saturday, run for time on Sunday. I could have made the decision on my own, but it was great to be able to hash it out in conversation with another runner who was familiar with my ability, weekly mileage and propensity to sell myself short.

As the sun set Friday evening I hit the Mesa Trail with my headlamp. The plan was to run up Big Bluestem, head down North Fork and loop around again, about a 6.5 mile route. I hadn’t been on the mountain in weeks and didn’t know what kind of conditions I would find. I ran Big Bluestem in the dusky twilight and at the top of the hill paused briefly to turn on my light. The bright moonlight didn’t reach the forest floor, and the footing was about to get tricky.

For the next mile and a half I walked/ran/slid my way down. At one point I stood on the side of the trail, looking in awe at the river of ice that twisted down the ravine and disappeared into the dark. No snowpack, gritty gravel or pine needles littered the ice. The only possible traction on this section was to try to land on the rocks that marred the perfection of the frozen terrain. Visions of falling backwards and breaking an arm danced around my brain, and I slowly resumed my cautious descent, realizing that if I truly injured myself it would be a long walk back to the car in the dark.

I ran slowly that night, looking up at the stars that shone so brightly. My feet hit every divot on the trail, jamming ankle bones this way and that. Pretty soon the cold that had started off as a benign chill permeated my bones because I wasn’t generating enough heat; I wasn’t running fast enough.

Back at the car I didn’t stop to stretch or take a last breath of night air; I headed home with the heat cranked. An hour later I climbed in bed to sleep, so I could get up and run again 10 hours later.

The next morning I joined the Saturday Morning gang at Bobolink and ran the same trail as the morning before, this time at a slower pace with different company and conversation. The incessant wind that has tortured us for weeks was quiet until the last few miles, which worked out perfectly because Siga and I were deep into solving our Contemporary World Problems; we had our groove on and weren’t deterred by a few 40 mph gusts.

At coffee that morning I ran into Jen, a friend of Dave’s. We exchanged cell phone numbers and arranged to run the next morning at the Boulder Reservoir. I told her my plan to run four hours; she wanted to run 20 miles, so we figured we were in the ballpark to do some serious miles together. We decided on a 6am start time, said goodbye and left to enjoy the day.

After getting 5 hours of sleep I arrived at the Boulder Reservoir. No other cars were there, so I had my pick of where to park. Jen arrived a few minutes later; we geared up and headed out.

My legs were tired when we started running and the wind was already ramping up its onslaught. We headed north out on 55th Street and watched the sky brighten to the east. A mile and a half in, we stopped for a pee break and Jen snapped a picture of me in the early light.

Jen was a powerhouse, chatting easily into the wind even when I had to duck my head to get out of the gusts. I lagged many times due to fatigued legs and the effort it took to battle 40 mph gusts that at time, seemed like they went on for miles.

We stopped again to take a picture of the alpaca that caught Dave, Nico and my attention a few weeks back. I clicked a picture of the local wildlife and giggled at the this one.

Alpaca face!

We kept a steady, slow pace, and I apologized to her again for my slowness. The last time she, Dave and I ran, we were a full minute faster on that 18-miler. Today, I just didn’t have it in me.

We rounded out around the Reservoir and watched a hundred runners head out together in a monthly rUnify Boulder gathering. I toyed with the idea of trying to catch them and tacking on the last 10 miles with the group, but they were a good half-mile in front of us and I didn’t have the wheel-power to catch them. We plodded along and turned into the wind again. We had another three miles before we even got to the cars.

The wind kicked up some spray along the dam of the Reservoir

At mile 18 I told Jen that when we arrived in the parking lot it was going to take a lot for me to want to keep going. The effort of battling the wind had done me in. We calculated our time and miles; we would have about 20 miles in the bank, coming in at 3 hours and sixteen minutes. It wasn’t worth it to me to keep plowing through the gusts to get another 45 minutes on my feet. I was done.

Back at home I added the mileage to my weekly training log and looked at the grand total. 51 miles in 4 days. My legs were trashed, I was hungry and tired, and completely satisfied with the week. I broke through some physical and mental barriers this week and have a few friends to thank for helping me along.

Thanks Dave, Jen and Jeff. You all helped me this week and I really appreciate the smack-talk and motivation that get me out of my comfort zone.

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Practicing yoga off the mat

“Breathe deep and bring awareness to everything you do.”

Yoga comes in many different forms, and there are a million places to practice in Boulder. This past week a friend traveling though town sampled much of what the city can offer a yogi, and shared some stories of studios and practices with me. There really does appear to be something for everyone.

Lee practices yoga almost daily, and sometimes he’s in the studio for two or three hours at a time. I know he loves the health benefits, but I didn’t know the extent of the yogic practice in his life.

Yesterday Lee and I were talking. I was physically present but my thoughts were a million years away. I tried to be engaged but there were walls around my words, and even the smile never reached my eyes.

He noticed. And commented. And wouldn’t let me give him a bullshit answer about what was really going on with me.

“Take the practice of yoga off the mat into your daily life.”

Very gently he offered compassion and awareness to my suffering. He created space for my tears, and waited for them to run their course with no judgment on the length of time my crying took, or how soon I would be “fine” again.

He’s a strong man, and let his attention sit firmly on me until such time that I was back in my body and back in the present. He gave me time to lance a childhood wound, witness the drainage, and wait for the time-travel back to the moment.

He embodied patience and strength, and trusted that I would be back, that I would not journey so far or so wide that I would be inaccessible for the rest of the conversation. He didn’t give up on me. He waited.

And within the space of that compassion I was able to witness my pain, grieve, and walk back to the place where I am a competent, intelligent, alive woman that seeks connection and life-force.

“Open your heart to others so that you may feel more deeply.”

I love the physical benefits of yoga as much as the next athlete. Stretching sore muscles, breathing deeply, receiving permission from the instructor to actually relax and not beat myself into a pulp… those are all good things. But the best part of yoga is when the teacher creates a gentle place to practice and let go of the stress of the day. When a yoga practice or studio is a retreat, it doesn’t matter what we do for those 60 or 9 minutes on the mat. The connection to the practice, self and others is the real magic.

Lee and I had planned on doing one last yoga class together before he left town, but as our conversation shifted, we let go of the time frame and let ourselves be present in the moment. And that, I believe, is the most authentic “practice” we could have ever done together.

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Boulder Backroads 21

Isn’t it funny how the runs you dread the most are usually the best ones? And how, if you go into a run with zero expectations, you get the most out of it?

The last few days have been hard, between not sleeping enough and doing some serious, hard-core yoga that has wailed on my hips and glutes. Add a few hormone into the mix and you have a beautiful trifecta that’s called Tired Runner Girl.

I actually got close to 8 hours of sleep last night and felt like I wouldn’t die if I ran long today, which was a better attitude than the one I went to sleep with. So things were looking up.

Dave, Nico and I met at the Boulder Reservoir at 6:30am. After a little general morning chitchat we took off down 55th street in the pre-dawn light.

They planned on running 21 miles today; I was thinking more along the lines of 18. We’re all running the Colorado Marathon in May and are loosely on the same training cycle, except I’m running the Desert R.A.T.S. 25 mile trail race in Fruita in April and need to peak earlier than them in terms of trail endurance, a totally different beast than marathon endurance.

Yesterday I ran Rattlesnake Gulch with the Boulder Trail Running Breakfast Club, pulling in about 10 miles in close to 2 hours. Did I really need to run 21 miles today, considering that my longest run in this training cycle was 16 miles? “Need” is a relative term because at mile 9, the moment when I had to choose if I would turn back and run the last 9 miles ALL BY MYSELF or finish the run with the guys, it was a no-brainer to decide to tack on the last 3 measly miles so I would have company the entire way.

I don’t know what the best part of the run was today because there were so many good things that happened.

The weather was perfect and the sunrise was phenomenal… orange and strawberry swirled sherbert at the top with a treasure trove of lemon meringue at the bottom, all culminating in a glowing ball of fire that rose from the flat side of the earth.

The conversation was amazing as well. We covered topics ranging from teen fiction to Dave’s passionate disgust of certain root vegetables, to pop culture and parenting, with the requisite breath spent debating the merits of distance running and opining about our certain brand of crazy. During one conversation I spouted off about the difference between Madonna’s “Express Yourself” and Lady Gaga’s “Born This Way” and used a short list of terms from some lyrics. Apparently Dave is getting to appreciate the variety of conversation I’m capable of and I’m waiting anxiously for the blog post in which he uses his new favorite word that until now, hasn’t been a part of his running vocabulary.

We cruised along at an 8 or 9 minute pace, stopping periodically to fuel, pee and take pictures next to the beautiful alpaca we found around mile 16.

Dave talking up the alpaca

She likes me, she really likes me!

Nico and the alpaca discussing who had the funniest hair.

We were a big pile of smiles and the miles continued to melt away as we casually, easily trotted along, engrossed in the moment.

Finally, around 9:45am, we saw the first signs of other runners. A big pack was headed our way. As they started to pass us Dave called out and greeted by name about six of the fastest guys you’re likely to see in Boulder, including James Carney, the guy who came in 7th in the Olympic Marathon Trials in Austin a few weeks ago. You know, because that’s who he hangs with. I mean really… what is this, BOULDER, the running mecca of the U.S.??? Yup.

Finally we turned onto 55th and headed into the homestretch. From somewhere behind us a group of runners that were doing an easy 90-minute run appeared out of nowhere. They magically split the three of us apart and with new pacing partners to reel us in, Dave, Nico and I ran our fastest three miles of the day. I talked with my new friends about social media, writing and One World Running, an organization they both volunteer for and one that’s been on my radar for a long time. We told stories and entertained each other until suddenly, we were done. 21.12 miles later, we were back at the cars.

There’s a certain magic that happens when you have no expectations. I didn’t know how far I was going to run today, how I would feel or what would happen anywhere along the way. I just knew that I was committed to showing up. In the process I got to run with two fabulously talented and interesting people and then met a few more along the way. That never would have happened if I had turned around at mile 9 for the crazy reason of “I shouldn’t push myself too hard”.

I’m stronger than I think, as a wise friend in Seattle keeps reminding me. And when I let my life be touched by other people, I gain so much more than strong quads.

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